Avatar or Alter ego?
I’ve been judged by an Avatar: how cool is that? Not in the sense that an Avatar has judged me, of course not, but in the sense that someone has based his judgment of me on an Avatar. And now, before I go any further, I want to say ‘hi’ to malos mannaja who will undoubtedly recognise himself in the previous sentence.
The Avatar I am talking about is the one above (I have posted a bigger picture so you can see it better), a digital drawing of mine, and one of the many artworks I have created for my own personal enjoyment.
Looking at my avatar I ask myself why did I choose it? Considering that I don’t look anything like her. I don’t smoke. I don’t have any piercings, and I’ve never had short hair?
The first obvious answer is that I really like this drawing, although…thinking a bit harder, I’ve come to the conclusion that there must be more to it than that, and that probably there is a subconscious reason behind it. Isn’t there one behind anything? But I’m damned if I know what it is.
Is my Avatar, which is called ClassyLady, the woman I would like to be? Looking at her I can see how she oozes sophistication, self-confidence, and it’s as cool as an ice maiden; and I totally disagree with Mano who, in his comment, has labelled her as ‘stiff’.
My Avatar is the woman who looks at you from a frame and thinks the world is her oyster.
My Avatar doesn’t have clouds floating over her head, repeatedly hitting her with a hammer, in the endless war that I call ‘propaganda’ thoughts.
My Avatar is honest, doesn’t apologize for her opinions, and cherry-picks what she likes without feeling guilty.
My Avatar doesn’t try to please anybody.
My Avatar lives between colourful bubbles, smoky ambiences, and silver frames.
The more I look at my Avatar and the more I think she is nothing like me. Is my Avatar my alter ego or am I a bad reflection of my Avatar?
I don’t know. But after all, inside each one of us, there is an Avatar dying to come out.
[I would love to hear from your Avatar. What does he / she think of you?]